I have just finished sewing a new batch of liluga’s. They are sitting quietly in a basket in my sewing room, awaiting their new homes. I need to pray to God about who I should give them to. After I pray, I need to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and be able to hear who He puts on my heart. Listening isn’t always easy.
I have been reading several different books on writing, and in one of them the author suggests a writing exercise on listening. She recommends sitting with a paper and pen, and for ten minutes or so, write what you hear. Here is what I wrote:
“As I sit here on this cold, winter evening, I have the Super Bowl and all it’s crazy commercials going on in the background.
I hear the heat blowing into the room. I like that sound because it means warmth. No blowing noise, no heat. The sound is almost as loud as the T.V. Ismael (my husband) has the volume low. I can hear the roar of the crowd at the stadium. The announcers voices are smooth and calm, unlike the soccer announcers on the Spanish stations.
The heat just shut off. I heard Ismael swallow. He is rubbing his finger over my leg, against the corduroy of my pants, making a swishing sound.
I can hear my step-son, Sebastion, going from his room to the bathroom, opening and shutting the doors. The clock across the room it ticking. Most of the time I don’t hear it. Today I do. Today I am listening.
Ismael just smirked at a commercial. The air is getting cooler, but it is quieter. Most of the time, I don’t listen. My inner thoughts are louder than the outside noises.”
I did this exercise a couple of weeks ago, and as I reread it, the last sentence really jumps out at me. I have a ton of inner thoughts going on at all times in my head, thoughts that block out a lot of outside noises. Some of those outside noises are good and need to be heard. Like hearing from God. I need to shut off my inner voice and just listen. I am going to do this exercise again, but this time I will listen to what God is saying.
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27